You came to see what has to go. Now it’s time to grow out of what is your mind and soul right now. It’s time to go.
Yes, those chilling words you speak to your soul, your heart, and your feet -“It’s time to go.” Does anyone else feel the energy flow to their legs cease? Maybe some back and leg pain to go with it? Yep 🥲.
The Kidneys and adrenals release fear and perhaps that root chakra is feeling the change in its stability and security. These are all valid and, for me, I’ve come to realize this reaction is because I am walking away from what I’ve known my whole life.
I’m leaving behind those patterns I knew to protect me. I’m leaving behind what I knew worked for me or kept me safe.
I received the call the grow – I’m sure you all did as well. I said, “Yeah okay, let’s do it.” only to find out I can’t take my patterns and safety net with me because it doesn’t fit the person I’m awakening to. I’m noticing those patterns I created for protection are now damaging and I’m noticing my little safety box has become a suffocating and claustrophobic one. These things are not only harming me but the relationships around me.
What’s so unnerving about the time to move is most of the time the destination is unknown. Most of the time we don’t know what we’re moving to, but we know the action is essential.
Most people will express to move anyway though they feel all the fear and anxiety. Well, I’m going to say the same thing, but I’m also going to recommend sitting with this feeling before you move. We know what our soul is craving, but how about understanding why we don’t want to move in that direction?
I have a fear of stepping into myself and the work that comes with it, and I have a fear of no control (who doesn’t?). What are the comforting things that keep me from moving?
For me? Predictability. If I stay where I am, I know what’s to come – in some form anyways. To me, predictability is a form of safety and control. I have so much anxiety about the unknown and being out of control. But a lot of life is unknown and understanding the only control you have is yourself. So, I’m asking myself, how can I move and understand I’m safe?
I trust that I’m guided to where I need to be. But sometimes just having trust is scary. Where can I find that predictability in my life? I look for it in my routines. I know I’m going to wake up in the morning, brush my teeth, shower, meditate, eat breakfast, and take my vitamins. I know that I plan to be at work to see my clients. I search for that control in my mental & physical actions and the little things in my daily life.
I know that some of these things may change a bit, but I can still predict these things will come to be. I know I have control over myself. Now, the only thing left to do is to move. When I do that and see I’m still here, I take another step.
What are your fears and how can they help you understand what you need to take a step?
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